I’m majoring in CS related-field, and I used to have tons of passion for it and underlying tech, and worked as full stack dev, but my mind was very different in a good way (better at logical/cognitive demanding tasks, creative, productive, etc). Things happened, and I just can’t stand living in society, experiencing all this materialistic world and feeling sick about it. I’m truly traumatized and I’ve been trying all available means to improve (so I’m not asking what rule 3 is against)… I can’t feel any passion for what I used to do… The meanings I gave for my life and hope are away. I don’t care anymore about digital world, industrialization, I just can’t. So my performance has suffered due to all this.
So, it can sound funny to read this, but I am considering living in a farm I have access to and do my own farming to eat, artesian well for water, constructing just a little home to live… I don’t exactly care about electricity. I would probably be happier just by burning some stuff to have light at night if needed and looking at the stars all alone until death.
What do you all think about this?
This sounds kinda like bargaining. Ultimately you can’t make something difficult work just by being willing to make sacrifices, when those sacrifices don’t necessarily influence the real bottlenecks in a significant way. That’s going to be money and laws, not food and electricity. Building a rough shack and an outhouse is illegal in various ways. You don’t save a lot of money having a garden, can’t realistically get all your food that way, and it’s a huge amount of work, same with firewood heating.
You can find ways to live cheaply but there’s going to be a minimum cost. Don’t start by committing to huge challenges you aren’t ready for.