i know it’s not just “teenage hormones” (18f). i cannot yet be given a diagnosis on anything though i will be talking to a psychiatrist. this is really fucked up, i hate this so much.

i’ll be full of energy, all these ideas and motivation. i’ll talk really fast and have no need for sleep.

then, i’ll get depressed. i was doing GREAT all week and today, but now i’m about to cry simply because my friend only spends time with her friend group and never me. i was mad at that and suddenly ready to block everyone but i feel guilty and im mad at myself for being this way.

i know she can hang out with her trio, i know we’re still friends. i normally wouldn’t be mad but i truly think i’m going insane.

    • LainTrain@lemmy.dbzer0.com
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      2 days ago

      I was referring to HRT. In this case I mean I’m trans and I have no gonads after sex reassignment surgery. My sex hormones (which is what people usually refer to in “teenage hormones” because they increase during puberty) come from estrogen patches externally at a dose calibrated to roughly match the mid-late follicular phase in a cis woman, so my levels are around 600pmol/L of Estrogen and 0.4nmol/L of Testosterone (14.42ng/DL in USA units)

      At the time I was referencing in the comment a few years back I still had my natal gonads but my testosterone production was completely suppressed at the production sites via a GNRH blocker (commonly known as a “puberty blockers”) and my T levels were the same as now as a result and my E levels were around the same level.

      Hope that explains it well enough. And no I’m afraid I haven’t read the short story in question.