So basically, I saw this post on titktok where everyone was discussing things about narcissists. And it triggered me and straight up made me wonder if I was one. Side note: I struggle with moral scrupulosity (OCD) and subtypes can bother me one week and completely not phase me the next. I will be 22 years old in 54 days. Ever since I came across that post, I have been analyzing and looking back at things that I have said or done in the past that would be considered a narcissist trait. Yes, I have been jealous. Yes, I have and still sometimes struggle with criticism. Yes, I can admit that I don’t always like being disagreed with or rejected. And sometimes I when someone says or done something to me that I might not have liked I tend to not talk them until they ask why. I can recall when I was in middle school age, I would get in arguments with my brother or mom and sometimes they would say: “why are you always trying to be the victim?” But here’s the thing, I don’t want it to continue. I want to be normal. I want all of this to change. I don’t want to be someone that my future spouse or kids would hate to be around. I asked both my mother and my mother do they think  and they said no. I fear it. So I will ask you, and I want you to be completely transparent. Do you think I am a narcissist?