I’ve worked really hard getting a certification and landed an excellent part time job. I’m in college and my grades are the best they’ve ever been despite my increased workload but I can’t stop constantly thinking about the past. There isn’t a moment in time where I don’t feel anxious, as if I don’t deserve this relative success I’m having. I feel like a fraud. I don’t know if I’m making any sense.
I don’t know what you did before that makes you feel this way, but if you hurt someone, don’t do it again. But understand you can’t change whatever happened.
Going forward, make sure you have positive interactions with the people around you. Help people out. It doesn’t matter who.
And if you did hurt someone, leave them alone unless you obtained a strong signal to make amends.
If you think you’re in the crosshairs of some kind of retribution or legal trouble, I would want to get that shit done as fast as possible. If not, work on your life and building relationships and experiences.
You have the rest of your life to make things right or at least to strike balance.