Honestly it became sort of a hobby of mine to just experiment with angles and lighting and facial features sometimes paying attention to ways that I might be able to guide someone to make certain gestures or create similar poses and such.

I should start doing it again I did feel better about myself and it was like playing adult dress up. It would be cool now too get kiddo involved in something like that since she’s into makeup and stuff and her nephew which is a year older than her seems like he likes to dress up and stuff too. I’m just actually kind of makes me have a little more motivation towards that goal again.

Also it may be pretentious or whatever the hell you may call it but I like the way I look in some of the pictures, I’m fascinated about the different ways I can look. Typically I don’t wear makeup except a little eyeliner and plain burt bees lip balm cuz it makes me feel odd So it’s sort of an outlet for doing makeup and stuff which is actually kind of fun sometimes.