1 Don’t compare yourself to anyone else. You aren’t them. They aren’t you. If you’re doing photography to copy someone else then what’s the point?
2 compare yourself to yourself, go back and look at your first few hundred shots and you’ll feel way better about yourself. I routinely scroll through photos that are a decade old and think “WTF was I doing with this shot/edit” and will sometimes touch stuff up for fun to see how far I’ve come/how much my style has progressed.
Keep at it, the more you do the better you get, having a plan can really help me when I’m in a ‘there’s nothing to shoot’ mood. Literally just got in the truck and drove hours to a mountain last weekend just to shoot leaves. Break the cycle. See you after your next 10k photos!
But you were second soooo, right to jail with you!