Narri N. (they/them)

I have a trauma-based personality disorder, which sometimes manifests itself in episodes of often uncontrollable bouts of verbal violence. I prefer to direct this to people on the internet (as opposed to actual people), as I don’t wish to be violent towards people I actually care about.

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  • Hey I get you. The great northern birdsnest I still call home has taught me since childhood that everything coming out of Russia has been, is and always will be bad. Just your standard rascism, “ryssä on ryssä vaikka voissa paistais” type of shit you know? “We weren’t actually nazis despite what we did with who in the war” and other collected denialisms on top of that. Unlearning the capitalist indoctrination is difficult, but I have learned to lend my critical support for the Russian state in the fight against western imperialist hegemony as my understanding of the world increases.





  • Because it’s often real fucking scary? My every past (often futile and misguided) attempt at forming a (stricly monogamous cishet) relationship ended for one reason (me) or another (the other half). I have been hurt by myself and others, by my own feelings or the other’s or the lack thereof from either. Now I live together with an incredible woman who gets me and I get her and our futures have so far seemed well aligned and stuff and I never have to fear to be judged or ridiculed by her unlike in previous attemps and I know she trusts me (and I trust her when she says so) as well. And yet still I find myself fearing: what if she’ll just stop loving me because of xyz? Because everyone else has left so far (sure I might have personally driven away a few because of my fears and insecurities, and maladaptations or other toxicities, but I’ve grown from those times emotionally). It’s real scary to open your shell and be at your most vunerable, but it is also required. Not everyone can be expected at any point to be able to do it just like that.

    That’s my two cents.












  • well yeah, the argument kinda falls apart when you apply it to yourself. in any case referring to ideologies in order to not have to apologize when you’ve screamed at a fellow worker seems kinda weird to me, because i’ve never really thought “all managers are enemies” or whatever, seems really needlessly extreme and shortsighted to direct your animosity towards this person in particular. just go apologize and go on with your life.


  • Narri N. (they/them)@lemmy.mltoNo Stupid Questions@lemmy.worlddel
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    the capitalists are the enemy not other workers. an easy way of distinguishing capitalists at a workplace and within said workplace’s hierarchy is asking a question: “would the workplace function were they not to come to work one day?” and if the answer is no, then they aren’t a capitalist. based on this text i’d say you probably should strive to clear the air between the two of you, if for nothing else than to make working there less shitty for screaming at a nice lady who just works there.