i think i compulsively “remix” things. not in a musical sense, but in a conversational one. it doesn’t feel to me like it’s enough to just react: if i send a meme to a friend, they will usually respond with an emoji, but when they send something to me i feel this… pull to continue the conversation. the original joke is not enough, it needs to be riffed on. if i can’t think of a witty comment for the thing, i often do not respond at all until i’ve thought of something.
what’s more, when i meet someone in real life whose response to a thing is just confirming the meme/reference out loud, i get annoyed. i’m fine with it in text form (it’s always fun to imagine someone chuckling looking at their phone), but when i make an allusion to a reference and someone goes “ah, <reference>” i feel like the conversation has just stalled. it makes me feel like i’m in the big bang theory and i have to pause for the laugh track. for some reason band kids do this a lot, don’t ask me why.
is this… weird? i feel like it’s weird.


i’ve dm’ed some oneshots that didn’t really go well. i think i lack the structure.
I have similar trouble. Maybe check out Paranoia XP it’s got a mission structure built into the session prep.