Keeping the weekly post warm until @alyaza comes back 🙂
What’s everyone been up to? Any plans for the weekend?
I think housemate made me sick. So, climbing Mt bogong is going to be interesting…
Good luck with the climb, hope you manage ok
This week is being a bit of a roller coaster. I got a CPAP machine yesterday after having been on a waiting list to get one for years. I was so happy to get it! But last night was by far the worst sleep I’ve had in ages- the machine feels like it’s suffocating me, and I apparently pushed it off my face at some point during the night, but the ridiculous app that came with the machine does not tell you what time you removed the mask or for how long, and apparently if you wake up and take a long time to fall asleep again, the app will totally ignore the initial period of sleep.
So today I’m exhausted and irritable, and woke up to excited messages from friends who were expecting the CPAP to change my life from the very first night, which was difficult to cope with, though of course I know they meant well. I hope things will get better.
That sucks. Is it something you can get used to do you think? Can imagine it’s a bit of a change
Yeah, it’s a big change. My adult son has been using CPAP for about two years and I’ve seen how much it helps him, so I am not giving up yet by any means. I’m just feeling whiny because I’m so tired of being exhausted and I guess I thought I’d see a huge benefit from day one.
Well, that is just not fun. You’re nice because you know those friends of yours meant well.
Mask fit and machine settings can be tricky to get dialed in, and they make a big difference. There’s a pretty good YouTuber with a channel called CPAP Reviews that may be useful for you. Your doctor and DME provider should be a good resource, and in many cases they are…buy sadly this can be hit or miss.
Thanks for that. Sadly, I’m far more likely to get useful information from the Internet than I am from my medical team. I actually turned to YouTube to “fill in” details the technician didn’t bother to tell me- namely that “mask leak” with a nasal pillow can be caused by opening your mouth. I also was able to work out, thanks to videos, that the nasal pillow I was told to use was a terrible fit for me, which is why I felt like I was suffocating and unable to breathe the first night, but the correct size was thankfully in the box. It’s been much smoother sailing since I swapped to the correct size pillow.
i’ve been exhausted, but i don’t have any downtime until saturday. (hooray, beach trip!) really looking forward to sitting on the beach for several hours under the shibumiTM getting some reading done.
Hope you get a chance to recharge
thank you! :)
Just another terrible week. Remember that post about the forgotten bitwarden password. I still haven’t remember the password. I’m not sure if I’ll ever find it. 😥
When depression is already so bad, this forgetting passwords thing is just another thing that’s slowly destroying my will to live.
I got fried kayaking over the weekend so I’m staying in the shade this week. Trip lasted longer than I expected and the sunscreen got washed off when we had to portage. Going to get some cleaning done while I’m out of service. Probably going to watch The Prestige while rubbing aloe on my legs.
i feel you, i burn way easy. last time i even applied sunscreen and didn’t even go swimming or anything :/ no clue if i just have to remember to reapply it or what, but it’s a total pain haha. hope you’re feeling better soon!
I am fanatical about applying sunscreen when I’m outside which sucks cause the one time I wasn’t an insane person I got cooked. On the boat I always wear a UV shirt, brimmed hat, and gloves to ensure my hands don’t get sunburned because that would be the worst. I have an open deck kayak and was sitting cross legged most of the time so I have a really interesting sunburn pattern lol.
Ouch hope you’re not too burnt! I burn so easily, I wear factor 50 SPF and still end up red. Not a fan of summer weather, though here it’s mostly rained for the last week so I’m grateful for that
Shifting the pin for this week, thanks for posting this while alyaza is out 😄
Some virus managed to wreck inflammatory havoc around some of my nerves and the right side of my head has been numb since Thursday, my ear in pain, and a zoo of sporadic symptoms come and go 😅 So I have been in the computer a lot. I’ve been working on setting up a lemmy instance and I also played in the canvas.
As for the rest of the week… I have been procrastinating on thesis writing, and I need to be done before September, so I am trying to find a source of will-power to force myself to write. But this infection is not helping me 😬
What kind of thesis? Is it the MA or the PhD? I’ve completed both. First step is to get some glue and a paint brush. Second step is to slather your ass with the glue. Then, you sit in the chair. If it’s MA, you can probably get away with less glue. Do this after you get better. Just get better really soon. Then glue your ass to the chair. You’ve probably learned how to write a lot by now with your ass glued to the chair. Feel better! Ass gluing isn’t good for you right now.
PhD thesis! 😅
Gluing my ass to the chair won’t be sufficient. I think I have some form of computer distraction addiction or undiagnosed ADHD, because when I am sitting at the computer I find it really hard to do what I need to do. I am able to find a universe of distractions by slightly moving my fingers, and I have an inordinate ability to psychologically (not rationally!!!) justify it as being somewhat useful. The only thing that saves me is that I can be very efficient when I do focus, but this has become more difficult as the complexity of the work increases, and so many different figures, tables, and concepts have to coalesce together to tell a story that I genuinely believe…
I would probably have a better chance trying to write with pencil and paper in an isolated island than with LaTeX in my computer…
I would probably have a better chance trying to write with pencil and paper in an isolated island than with LaTeX in my computer
As a fellow PhD student that’s a mood lol
Overleaf intimidates me
If it’s any consolation, I glued my ass to the chair and wrote the PhD thesis, and even got tenure in academia. I quit my job after being tenured and promoted. So it’s all good. It’s nice, though, to finish the fucker. The best way is gluing the ass to the chair. I can attest. Get well soon!
Thanks! It is some consolation. 🫂
I’m glad, because that’s the pressure that’s on you, no doubt, in finishing this dissertation. Life is funny. Your whole self worth is not this. It’s a transactional relationship. Your committee is hopeful, so you should be. Get the shit done and get on with your life, which has many surprises in store for you, don’t I know? You’re definitely worthy. Nobody flunks the dissertation stage, so just write the thing. You’ll be fine. Trust me, if your life is anything like mine, there is a life beyond the dissertation that is far more challenging and will wipe the glue right off your ass.
oh no :( i hope you get better soon, that sounds terrible to deal with!
Thanks! I’m at 90% now :) Things that affect the nerves are scary, but the doctor helped calm my fears as symptoms were consistent with a not-too-serious sinus infection.
This Saturday marks the annual get together for my mother’s side of the family, always held at my grandparent’s old house, which happens to be in the next town over from where my wife and I live (everybody else travels for hours). It’s always nice but stressful at the same time, with ~20 additional people who each have expectations of you. This week is all about making it look like we don’t have a million irons in the fire.
Sounds intense, hope you get some time to unwind afterwards
Is it weird to reply to my own thread? Ah well.
This week has been suspiciously good so far. Getting things done, people have largely been nice, spent the weekend with my sister’s cat which was lovely. I’m just waiting for something bad to happen (super healthy I know).
pretty good so far! have a couple hangouts scheduled with friends, some important paperwork to do that i’ve been slacking on, and a camping trip this weekend! also i’m pretty excited for all that. and i’ve been getting some time to work on my jacket project, which makes me very happy.
Oh cool what kind of jacket are you making? Hope the weather is kind to you this weekend!
thanks! it’s just a black denim jacket i thrifted and have been “upgrading” in a way haha. sewing pockets on the inside, making and putting on some handmade patches for bands i like, embroidering on it, that kind of thing :)
nothing on the back though quite yetThat looks great! Very punk
I’ma be real, it’s a mixed bag. A lot of things have gone drastically wrong, even one going so far as to make me unable to walk. Yet I’ve had like two things that shocked me and made life slightly more tolerable.
Mostly I just want a hug. Was my birthday a couple days ago and I realized it’d been 13 years since I’ve had a hug. Broke me a little.
Awful, sadly. Somehow i feel more and more alone in this world. It’s probably a joke from the universe “you’re gonna kill yourself anyway, why don’t I make it faster and easier for you”
(Don’t reply to this, I just need to let it out, not interested in reaching out)
Going camping for a friend’s bday Thursday through Saturday in Malibu Creek State Park! Verrrrry excited as I’ve been wanting to go camping so bad, it’s been a few years since I’ve gone and it’s such a crucial reset for me. I think it has to do with growing up and camping a lot. Lots of memories to rekindle, lots of moments for reflection and processing. Anyways, hope you all have a great weekend!
Hope you have a great time!
I’m from the UK so forgive the ignorance, but I thought Malibu was mostly beach?
Not a huge fan of camping personally but I LOVE a campfire and looking up at the stars. So peaceful
OMG. I love Malibu. I guess it isn’t Malibu Creek, but whatever. I’d totally go camping in Malibu.
I arrived in Boise this weekend. I’m here for the month then moving on to my next stop. Looking forward to exploring a new city, getting in some cycling, and meeting some new people!
Processing the fact that I’m living in my office now. Bought some stuff I needed and fixed some small things like a statue and a lamp and so on. I hope I’ll get back into first gear again sometime soon.
